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Yay Friday. Therapy. Always nice. I get yoga and meditation material today which I've been looking forward to. I'm feeling better since yesterday though it still bothers me. Lack of friends up here thing. Well i have friends, but they're not always best to hang out with. Two are in Portland, one doesnt do the hanging out thing and another lives quite a ways away though she used to live up here. Its partly my fault for not having friends here; i should have been more aggressive and persistent and I stay mostly to my house or around my bf but i dislike talking to and being around strangers. Freaks me out. I didnt used to be like that but i think being by myself for almost 2 years has put me out of practice and no longer comfortable being around strangers. Never liked talking to strangers but it was never this bad. Tried talking to mom about it but she made me feel worse, though i know it wasnt her intent. She did suggest i try knitting/crochet guilds and clubs at school (when i start going again but that means i need to call disability) so i might look into that.

On another note, i'm starting to join my granny squares for my crocheted blanket even though not all the squares are done but i'm just going to start making them as i go, maybe one to a few at a time but making just squares and having so many start piling up was just too much. i'd rather join and have a wip blanket forming instead of its bits lying around. It would be fun to teach crocheting and knitting but i need to get much better at it.

i'm glad i'm feeling better from my meds. Took over a week to start feeling normal and i've had on and off heartburn and nausea since then but i think thats just my body getting back to where it was before it was knocked out of wack. Definitely not those meds again. Therapist is going to/has talked to the psychiatrist about them. Most likely will tell/has told her that they are really not good for me and did way more harm then its worth. That was awful. I miss my meds that didnt really have any side effects other then the sleeping one just made me a little groggy for a few hours after waking up. That's heaven compared to what those new ones did to me. ugh.